My little boy (he called me little girl and I called him little boy) was not a perfect man, but even with his weaknesses - among them alcohol - he was still the most honest, strongest and hardest working man I have EVER known. I would not have enough time to share with you how many times I saw him cry, how many times he felt defeated, how many times he was betrayed by those he considered family, how many times he had to start from zero. Growing up, moving and adapting was a constant in my life, I think that is one reason why I learned to be independent at a young age. But my little boy never ever left his family behind, never ever let anything else get in the way of providing me and my brother with a good education, freedom to make our own choices and love and forgiveness when we made mistakes.
I miss him so much!
I miss him calling me "menininha" (little girl in Portuguese), I miss him waking me up by kissing my cheeks over and over, running his scrufy beard on my face, I miss him singing OUR song, I miss him comforting me when I felt I could not succeed in life and telling me "You can accomplish anything because you're a Vila Nova!"
The tears rolling down my face right now are a mix of sadness and joy. Sadness because selfishly I wish he could still be in this mortal world, I wish Trevor had had the chance to meet him and had felt how proud my little boy is that I married such wonderful man. Tears of joy because I am so happy that he is now in a better place, where physical pain does not exist.
Menininho, I miss you!!! I feel you next to me when I need you the most. I still hear your voice singing our song to me. I dream that we are together, dressed in white, forever.
Happy Birthday!
Giving me loves when I was little.
Giving me loves in May 2005, the last time I saw him alive.
saying goodbye in October 2997. He passed away in March 2007.
Yesterday was also my sister-in-law Kat's birthday. I'll blog about it next year!!
Happy New Year Everyone!
Go hug your dads and moms RIGHT NOW and tell them how loved they are :)
