My little boy (he called me little girl and I called him little boy) was not a perfect man, but even with his weaknesses - among them alcohol - he was still the most honest, strongest and hardest working man I have EVER known. I would not have enough time to share with you how many times I saw him cry, how many times he felt defeated, how many times he was betrayed by those he considered family, how many times he had to start from zero. Growing up, moving and adapting was a constant in my life, I think that is one reason why I learned to be independent at a young age. But my little boy never ever left his family behind, never ever let anything else get in the way of providing me and my brother with a good education, freedom to make our own choices and love and forgiveness when we made mistakes.
I miss him so much!
I miss him calling me "menininha" (little girl in Portuguese), I miss him waking me up by kissing my cheeks over and over, running his scrufy beard on my face, I miss him singing OUR song, I miss him comforting me when I felt I could not succeed in life and telling me "You can accomplish anything because you're a Vila Nova!"
The tears rolling down my face right now are a mix of sadness and joy. Sadness because selfishly I wish he could still be in this mortal world, I wish Trevor had had the chance to meet him and had felt how proud my little boy is that I married such wonderful man. Tears of joy because I am so happy that he is now in a better place, where physical pain does not exist.
Menininho, I miss you!!! I feel you next to me when I need you the most. I still hear your voice singing our song to me. I dream that we are together, dressed in white, forever.
Happy Birthday!
Giving me loves when I was little.
Giving me loves in May 2005, the last time I saw him alive.
saying goodbye in October 2997. He passed away in March 2007.
Yesterday was also my sister-in-law Kat's birthday. I'll blog about it next year!!
Happy New Year Everyone!
Go hug your dads and moms RIGHT NOW and tell them how loved they are :)
9 comments:
you even made me cry with this post!:) And it just made me think how blessed we're to know that we will be able to be with our loved ones forever as you sayed it- dressed in white! Isn't it wonderful??? I never had a relationship with my dad but i feel these feelings about my grandparents who i miss so much. Happy new year friend!
While I didn't cry, I was very touched by this post. Very beautifully written and compiled, perhaps the angels had a hand in it.
My sympathies to you at this time of remembrance.
Such a beautiful dedication to your father, Kika. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and memories of your father, he really seemed like a great one!
Sua Tchonga!!! Beautiful post about menininho... Do you remember when you went to Recife in 2003 and him and your mom took us everywhere? It was so fun! And when we went to the Marco Zero to watch his cousin perform... It was awesome! I tried to call you to wish Happy New Year but I think your phone was off. I love you and am so grateful for all the things we have shared. You are the sister that I never had... (But sisters fight too much and we don't). So I guess it's better that we are BFF's heheheh... Feliz Ano Novo!!! Beijo e ME LIGA!
Awwww....I always really liked your dad...he was so nice and funny :) I'm glad you posted about him because I've gotten to know him better through it!! You're right, he's in a good place right now, and things are only looking up for you and your family. ps. October 2997 is a typo, right? Just thought you might want to fix that :)
Te AMUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!
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Que linda homenagem ao teu menininho, Kika! Ele parece ter sido muito doce, foi otimo conhecer um pouco mais dele e ver que essa Vila Nova forte que es veio do teu exemplo em casa com teu paizinho querido. Com certeza ele estah lah orgulhoso de ti, tua familia e da mulher de valor que ele ajudou a criar...
Um beijaaao!!
Mulher tou aqui chorando com esse lindo post sobre seu pai. Que linda homenagem Kika! Que belas palavras! Tenho certeza q seu paizinho lá do céu olha por vc e sua familia! Um dia vc irá reencontra-lo e dar aquele abraço bem gostoso nele! N haverá mais despedidas... Ah como será bom! Um bjaooo
Que post lindo sobre seu pai. Fiquei muito emocionada. Beijinhos pra ele la no ceu.
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