And One Question Remains...

Haven't blogged in forever, for so many reasons, none of which are probably good enough.

The news for this year 2011? Trevor and I got a divorce. Too personal and painful to talk about it still, but we are very friendly to each other and will always put Olivia first, and that makes me happy right now. Three weeks ago my bishop told me "you may not get over this, but you will.get.through.it!" - ain't that true? And so life goes on, but one question remains.... what should I name this blog now? Suggestions are welcome :)

The love of my life and I

Inspiration

Got an email from my Relief Society today and it had this quote:

“The gospel is a thing of joy. It provides us with a reason for gladness. Of course there are times of sorrow. Of course there are hours of concern and anxiety. We all worry. But the Lord has told us to lift our hearts and rejoice. I see so many people … who seem never to see the sunshine, but who constantly walk with storms under cloudy skies. Cultivate an attitude of happiness. Cultivate a spirit of optimism. Walk with faith, rejoicing in the beauties of nature, in the goodness of those you love, in the testimony which you carry in your heart concerning things divine…I am asking that we stop seeking out the storms and enjoy more fully the sunlight”
(from Words of the Prophet: The Spirit of Optimism by President Gordon B. Hinckley).

Isn't this quote just awesome?? Just what I needed. Thank you, sisters! I keep reading it over and over and over again. I need this quote to become part of my being, right.now.

I have a testimony of this Gospel and that "men are that they have joy." I do have many reasons to rejoice and will continue to count my blessings each day! :)

What Else Is New?!

We've moved! We now live in my in-laws' house. We made the decision last minute, on the day that we were supposed to renew our contract with the apartment complex we were living at. We're not even unpacking everything cuz it is temporary until the house sells and we have to move again. Living among boxes is not fun but saving money is, so we are grateful that our inlaws let us stay there for a while.

I also changed my schedule at work. I now work from 7am till 1pm. I don't love waking up early but I am LOVING to get home a little after 1pm and knowing I have the rest of the day to spend with Olivia and Trevor! Feels great!

Yesterday was interesting... I took a sleeping aid prescribed by my beloved doc because I was having difficulty falling asleep (I've been sleeping about two to three hours/night for a while... no, not good) but I miscalculated the amount of time I had to sleep after taking the pill... Anyway, I woke up over one hour late for work and felt drowsy all morning until I got home and took a five hour nap. I seriously don't remember 80% of the things I did and said yesterday before my nap. I think my speech was slow too, as if I were drunk. So... fellow blog readers, make sure you have at least eight hours available to sleep after you take a sleeping pill. Lesson lived, lesson learned :)

Besides that life goes on as usual... Murphy's law has been by our side, in many different ways, what can go wrong, has gone wrong. But as I was talking to an acquaintance last week (I am re-learning to use the word "friend", it will take a while, so I have lots of acquaintaces now) she reminded me of Jesus and Job and Joseph Smith and so many others who were nice people and still had bad things happen to them. See, I know that blessings come from doing what's right and when I don't receive a blessing I am asking for, I have a tendency to think that it's gotta be because I am not doing things right. It's a punishment. I am not good enough so I don't receive the blessings I pray so much about. But I guess it's not always that way... Bad things happen to good people and good things seem to happen to bad people. It's just the way it is and it's part of this thing we call life.

I want to know, though, what do you do when things seem to just go wrong all the time?